For us.

Hello,

hello to someone who means something to me.

If I were to be honest there’s a big part of me who wants to just come out.. and tell you everything that is bothering me, scaring me, getting me anxious. It is quite sad That I can not do it..

I can’t say it’s not because I don’t trust you… truth be told I don’t know what you think of me yet and I don’t know if I can trust you with my demons. And for all that matter, I don’t know if I ever will.

Before we became a thing… in fact, long before we became a thing I had decided that I… would either not get married… or I would tell everything with complete honestly to the one who is meant to be mine and vice versa.

I have not been through a life with seeing conflicts of marriage.. but Marriage has always seemed something out of my league. However when you came along I just… knew that this was something I wanted.

I knew or at least I believed that no matter what the future held or whoever you were, whatever you were like… I’d be fine. Frankly you’ve turned out a lot better then what I hoped for you to be.

Maybe you being as good as you are scares me about sharing with you who I am, or have been. You make me want to bury my past… myself.. you make me want to forget all the demons I have… and surprisingly you who I don’t even know that well somehow make me feel as if I’ve known you from the beginning.

I don’t know where this “us” stands for our sake, I don’t know what the right thing to do is. All I know.. I’ve taken the step for us.. and what I believe was the right thing to do is bury everything… the good, the bad, the demons.. as well as my innocence.

For us.. today, I pledge before myself that I will whatever it takes and get a life with you that I believe you and I both deserve. To us, may we both be as wonderful as we are today. And for us, may I be the perfection you say I am.